Love in the Time of Fear
Two boys sitting in a car
Staring out to the ocean out to the west
And they was drinking beer
And talking about tunes and sports
About the hum drum of their daily lives
In their closing high school days
Ah, but it was anything but
Was on their minds
Pacific communication
So close, and yet so far
Pacific communication
If only in that car
It’d been alright
To speak their full mind
Each boy having a secret
That he was too afraid to tell
Because in those days
In their insular world
It could still mean
Being condemned to a living hell
If they crossed that line
Out of line
Yeah, trusted the wrong soul
And lost control
Of the lie that had protected them
Pacific communication
So many things left unsaid
Pacific communication
Ah, but there is always so much more time
Until we are dead
He woke up in the morning with blurry eyes
And a hungover mind
From the night before
To find his mother
Crying in the kitchen
Trying to steel herself
For what lay in store
Trying to find the words
To tell her son
That his best friend was dead
By his own hand
With a gun
No note left
No reason why
Too numb to speak
Could only cry
The sound of a heart breaking
Can’t be captured by any microphone
Though it echoes on forever
Inside of our domes
The ghost limb it speaks
Deep in the night
When we are trying to escape
Yeah, sleep so tight
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
Oh…
Them being best friends
Yeah, and playing in the same
Rock and roll band
He asked the bereaved family
If he could look through his friends many lyric books
Written in his friends own hand
To see if there was something that could be read
At the funeral
In just a few days time
Lord, something beautiful
A summation sublime
Poets wear their hearts on their sleeves
To them, it’s like a disease
It is a blessing to mankind
All the things he could not say in real life
He could say in his other life in song
On the pages of those notebooks
The pages of those notebooks
The secrets of his heart they were spilt
Oh daddy, oh daddy
He spent so much time
Over the next few days
Pouring over the endless pages
Of the notebooks in question
He laughed and he cried
He wiped the tears from his eyes
It was like reading his friends own mind
But his blood ran cold
At the last entry there was to find
Oh daddy, oh daddy
Please don’t hate me, no
I tried to be a man
But it does not seem to be the way that you told me
The way that they told me
The way that they sold me
I would be
Oh daddy, oh daddy
Please don’t hate me, no
My heart loves differently
And the world just doesn’t understand
It wasn’t my choice
Nah, it wasn’t my plan
It’s just in the end
Who I am
But, I know I’ll be hated
If I speak these words out loud
So, I’ll leave this world
Scared and unproud
(I just don’t want to disappoint anyone)
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
Oh…
And in a moment of heartbreak
The notebook fell to the ground
You want to reach back
Across the field of time
And just fix that one moment
To which you were blind
Ah, but honey it don’t work that way
No matter how much we hope
And pray
We just got to play it
The way it’s laid
But I could have been your best friend
And your lover too
I could have been the bright light
Shinning through
I could have been your shelter from the storm
I could have been the love
The love that kept you warm
Like our fires on the beach
But you put yourself out of reach
God Damn you for that…
I mean, God damn this wall of fear
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
For cryin’ out loud
Oh…
For not cryin’ out loud
For not cryin’ out loud
For not cryin’ out loud
Oh…
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